Just rambling & such...

I don't even know where I'm going to start with this post. It's probably just going to be another of those rambling on & on posts with all it's typos and bad punctuations, etc. I never claimed to be a writer. It for sure wasn't my best subject in school and most likely never will be and that's ok. Honestly, it really is. It just amazes me that people actually read my blog. It was really just meant for myself as a diary of my days, but I'm glad that people like following our crazy life.

First off, I want to say that I love my Lord Savior Jesus Christ. He is the best thing that ever happened to me. My heart is full tonight. A few weeks ago my hubby was called out of town, I was alone for weeks with the kids, my little girl foster seemed to be getting sick again, nothing seemed to be going right, and my heart was just heavy. Really heavy. As I look back now I realize just how low I had gotten. One night, I just laid in my den and prayed. I lifted my hands to Heaven and told God that I couldn't do it by myself. I had to have His help. I needed to feel His presence.The next morning a new nurse walked through my door. She wasn't my nurse, but a fill in nurse. She said, "God has sent me to tell you that you've been in the valley for a while now and you are headed for the mountain top". Now, you may think that's silly, but It's the truth. It blew my mind. How did she know? This lady didn't know me or anything about me. That very day things started looking up.  Since then God has really been working in our home. It seems He just keeps pouring His love down on us and I've almost been overwhelmed with all He is doing. Why did I share this? To give all the praise and glory to God. If He can do this for me then He can do it for you too. If you need something. He is just a prayer away.  Just look up and ask Him.  Everything I am, everything I have, everything I do is because of God and God alone. By myself I'm a mess...I'm not kidding. A simple minded mess. Without Him I'm nothing. Thank you Lord for your blessings on me.

My baby girl is doing so good. The new meds are keeping her stable for the first time since her accident in March. She still struggles with using her hands, setting up by herself, and walking in her walker, but we will NOT give up. We will NEVER give up on her. She is two years old. She wants to be like other two year olds. She once ran around and played, but now she has to have help with everything and at times she gets very frustrated. Sometimes she cries for hours on end. It's just hard for her to understand all that is happening in her life. Please keep her in your prayers. She is going to get better. It may take a while but she will. I know she will.

It really hit me the other day while out shopping for Christmas that there really is not a lot out there for special needs babies. It's so hard to buy toys for them. You can find things online but they are always way to expensive. I should be looking at toys to push & learn to walk for BB, but he is no where near walking yet. He can't even set up by himself. His doctors & therapist all seem to think he will be able to set up, crawl, and walk one day. I sure hope so.  For Brylee I should be looking at riding toys, but she can't even set alone much less walk or ride on toys.  It made me realize once more just how blessed I am that my birth children were all healthy. However, I'm still blessed with these two babies just in different ways. They truly are gifts from above and they came to remind me how fragile & precious life really is and they do every single day.

All three of my guys have killed deer over the last week. My Hubby got a nine pointer. My youngest son got his first deer a doe. My oldest son got his very first deer too, a spike. They have been soooo excited. I'm happy too because we will have a freezer full of meat. I'm proud of my boys.

Our little foster JJ will start the transition this week into his forever home. He will be leaving us. He's been with us 15 months. He was matched with a waiting family. He will have a Christian Daddy and Mommy & 2 older sisters. That's what I wanted for him. I will get to meet them this week and then he will get to meet them and slowly he will make his way home. This is an exciting time for him. Please keep him & his new family in your prayers.

Every day brings us a little closer to the birth of Katie's first baby and our new granddaughter. Katie goes back this week to have another checkup.Please keep them in your prayers.


It's that dreaded time of the year again. Time for re-certification for fostering. I really didn't think we would still be fostering. This will be our 8th year. 8 years! That just blows my mind. We usually wait until the end of December, but this year I've decided to get it over with so that I can set back and just enjoy Christmas. If all goes well we will be in for another year, but we will be closing our home  to any new kids so that we can focus all of our time & attention on the ones we have.

hmmm....what else?!?!....

We have 29 days until Christmas!!!!
I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping. I just started 2 weeks ago, but I made myself a list and found mostly everything online. Then on the day after Thanksgiving I went with my mom and finished off almost everything I lacked. I'm happy for that. I just wanted to get everything out of the way before December, because December is such a busy month for us.

Well that's it. My hubby is about to walk in the door with some pizza farm pizza & salads. Have a great weekend everyone!


Trust in the LORD with all thine heart;and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him,and he will direct thy paths. ~Proverbs 3:5-6