I'm so glad you're mine...

 

My feelings can be summed up in this song by Rachael Coleman.

 

Special To Me

 

Today will soon be over

Tomorrow will arrive

Right now I’m going to hold you

Until you close your eyes

Words can’t always sum up

The feelings that I feel

So peaceful when you’re sleeping

I know you’ll hear me still

(Signing) "You are very special to me

And I am very special to you

I know that this is where I am meant to be

I’m glad that my baby is you"

Exactly what I wanted

Exactly who you are

I know we’ll work together

And we will reach the stars

Families stick together

And family lasts forever

Forever, that’s how long

I’ll love you

(Signing) "You are very special to me

And I am very special to you

I know that this is where I am meant to be

I’m glad that my baby is you"

I know this is where I am meant to be

I’m glad that my baby is you

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Some thought we should walk away. Some thought we were crazy. We even had doctors tell us to give BB back to DFCS, because the future didn't look bright. My heart broke. How could this be? How did the hospital miss all these signs at birth?  How did they not know he was so sick? I had so many questions just like any other new mother. No he wasn't my child at birth, but he was mine at that moment. I loved him from the very first day they placed him in my arms (2 days old). I knew that I was all he had at that moment and that no matter what (just like all of my other foster kids) I would do everything I could to help him. Some people don't understand that and they probably never will because this world is a self centered selfish place. This is my calling. God has given me a heart for the less fortunate & the desire to do His will and His will for me is to serve others and I will for as long as I am able.

 

The first doctor I took him too made me think I was nuts. She found nothing wrong with him. But I knew. I just knew. Call it a mommy thing if you like. I waited a week for my own pediatrician to come back from maternity leave and I took him back in. I told her my concerns and asked her to please check him from head to toe. She did. She knew right away something was very wrong. She sent me right then to the imaging center. The results came back that my baby was very sick. I started taking him from specialist to specialist. I started searching online to learn everything I could about my baby and his symptoms.  I spent many days and weeks on the road to Atlanta and several nights in the hospital. I held my sweet baby as he went through test after test after test.  One doctor just led to another doctor and one diagnoses to another. The more we went through together the more I realized just what God had given me. God had given me a miracle child. A child that God would use to change this world (at least my world). He changed me. He opened an amazing world to me that I never knew existed before. The world of special needs. I have met so many amazing people, doctors, therapists and families.

 

BB is doing so much better now. His future is still unknown, but he is so much better than anyone ever expected. Many of his problems have resolved themselves and I believe that his liver & spleen have healed. We will know for sure in Feb when they retest his functions, but I truly believe he is healed. His blood readings are better. His hernia has went away. His heart murmur is no longer present. Medicine has his seizures under control. He is getting a little better at eating and can handle most of the 2nd stage baby foods now. His therapist is working hard to correct his oral aversion & sensory issues. He was labeled as failure to thrive, but he is thriving. Yes, he is profoundly deaf and no he is not a candidate for cochlears ,because of the extra fluid in his head, so he will never hear and that's okay. We have accepted this as just the way God made him. We are learning to communicate with him through sign language. He can not set up yet and he can not crawl, but we believe he will eventually, because he is trying. He is holding his head up now and he has learned  to roll over, hold and chew on his toys. Those are major milestone for him. He still has a ways to go, but he has already came a long way. We are still not sure about his vision, we will know more when he turns one.Yes, the future is unknown, but I serve an awesome God and He is THE GREAT PHYSICIAN.



 

 

 

Shine

By Rachael Coleman 

Sometimes I see you stuck

For such a long time

A daily nothing new

Pretend I don’t mind

With lists of things you’ll never do

Until somehow you do

And you do — you do — you shine
 

The days and months and years,

they run together

Is it just one day? Or is this forever?

You’ve taught me in your lifetime

More than I’d learned in mine

And you do, you do, you shine
 

Shine Shine Shine Shine Shine

Shine your light on me

Shine Shine Shine Shine Shine

everyone will see

Shine Shine Shine Shine Shine

I’m so glad you are mine

And you’ll shine in your own time

 

Well, maybe I’m too close to see you clearly

Or is it now my role to simply believe?

You’re just one of those mysteries

That may never be solved in time

But you do — you do — you shine

 

And Sammy will do what Sammy will do when Sammy is ready to do it

And Trevor will do what Trevor will do when Trevor is ready to do it

And Lucy will do what Lucy will do when Lucy is ready to do it

And they’ll do it in their own time

Yeah, they’ll Shine Shine Shine Shine Shine

Shine your light on me

Shine Shine Shine Shine Shine

And everyone will see

Shine Shine Shine Shine Shine

I’m so glad you are mine

And you’ll shine, and you shine

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Our baby will do what he will do

when he is ready to do it.
And he'll do it in his own time.
Yeah, he'll shine.

So shine on little boy of mine
because

you are my sunshine.

 

 

 We are in the process of adopting our baby boy.
We are so thankful that his birth family
has chosen to make us his forever family.
What a precious gift he is.

 

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart;and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him,and he will direct thy paths. ~Proverbs 3:5-6